Responsibility - at the Potter's Wheel

After 15 years of work in healing and communicating with my inner child, I come today to the core issue of responsibility. By responsibility, I do not mean the commonly understood way of taking the blame (who's fault is this). This is about moving away from the fault-lines. I am talking here of my response-ability.

Responsibility an active, life-changing stance. Responsibility is always taken, when one takes charge. Sure, I've held many roles in life. Being a daughter, wife, mother, daughter-in-law, manager, professional, team-member, voter - all of these require responsibility. Have'nt I discharged my duties to the best of my 'responsibility'?

I mean much more here. Its about being in integrity in every way. With my body, my emotions, my soul, my spirit, my relationships, my time, my life, my ecology, my dreams, my missions.

Being responbsible, for me. is beginning to mean a life free of blame and complaints. And defences. Slowly, like weeds, I am removing complaints, blaming, and explaining from my day to day existance. Like a shaggy dog shakes itself free of the water after a bath, I am constantly shaking myself free of these. And most of all, owning my projections. Very, very important. In responsibility, there is no finger-pointing. I take responsibility at all times for being in communication.

At all times, I am the Cause, the Creator. Responsiblity is a place to stand. It is space free of fear, guilt, helplessness, looking for credit or approval. Being free of guilt is still a tough one. I guess I am in guilt for a dozen things in a day. Comes from a deep-rooted internalised right and wrong paradigm and 'shoulds' that I operate from. Somewhere along the way, I internalised the oppressors as 'voices' in my head. Lots of revisiting, releasing and letting go of old patterns is happening within. And loads of loving and accepting myself.

Being responsible means I am the creator of my life. I have the power to manifest anything and everything in my life, and if I am not happy at the way my life is going, I need to look within. What am I resisting. Resistance destroys personal power. The more I resist pain and discomfort, the more it persists and the more I create it. I don't get what I want in life. I get what I create. I know now how to 'manage' disturbance in the environment by making a shift inside. At all times, who I am being is what I am manifesting. Actually, I am having quite a lot of fun doing this. It works, and how! When I heal the person, or the situation, inside of me, I bring a change in my world. Yes, responsibility is also acknowledging my power as a creator.

I understand better the cause and effect dynamics of the universe. And learn to play by the rules of the universal laws. 'What I give is what I get.' As I bring myself in balance, I bring more balance into the world.

So, here's my checklist for being responsible:

• Am I living in my world, or a world created by someone else.



• Am I the CEO of my life, or someone else is.



• Am I working on my dreams, projects, wish list with enthusiasm and gusto.



• Am I in integrity with my commitments and agreements - both to myself and others.



• Am I my authentic self at all times. ( or is fear still ruling in a threatning situation)



• Am I aware at all times that I am living my interpretation.

I am the pot, the potters wheel, the clay and the hand that moulds the clay. I am the fire, the klin, and the baking.