One of the biggest gifts that working with Kryon energies and teachings has given me is the deep connect with my body. This connect has taught me a practice of deep listening of my body at cellular levels. And did my body have stories to tell! All these years, I have only spoken to my body, and listened only sometimes. I've even negotiated with it, with regard to rest, sleep, aches and pains. And the beautiful companion that it has been, it always co-operated.
When I accessed the cellular levels, I was amazed at the memories that were piled up inside. A respectful, non-interfering, non-judgmental listening opened up a library of information. The more respectful I was to my body wisdom, the more I could access. One simple way to communicate this respect was to follow what it said, about simple things like food, rest, even clothes I wear. Slowly, and surely, a bond was built, and a new partnership emerged.
I began to love and rever my body. This obviously meant that I stopped abusing it. I was always particular of eating healthy food, but that is not the only thing that the body stores and processes.
Every single emotion that I have experienced, is held by the body too. And I have held plenty of corrosive emotions in my body. Anger, jealousy, fear, hatred, lesserness, rejection, sorrow, hurt... in short, the works. I understood that every situation that brings in these emotions gets stored in my cells in the form of residues called memories. And memories with charges are nothing but incomplete outcomes. Something happened, and I was affected, an emotional charge was triggered, and though the moment passed, it left unhappy memories. And where do these go? Oh no, they just don't melt away into the ethers as I had naively thought, they went and settled in my body as 'memories', waiting for completion. Nothing is ever forgotton. If an emotional charge has been triggered, the body demands completion. And its way of doing it is to store the memory, for future reference and completion. So this does not happens in the 3D gross dimension, but in the emotional body, that sits in the physical body, and this stored emotion exists as cellular memory. I had been slowly and surely messing up my energetic body.
So what happens when I have a storehouse of cellular memories? The fear that I had experienced earlier, wants to warn me everytime: 'beware, this situation is potentially dangerous. Remember the last time blah blah blah....' and the memories release their emotional charges, and before I know it, I have already reacted to the situation in auto-pilot. I was simply a helpless trigger mechanism of all the stored demons inside.
For me, my favourite emotion has always been hurt. My wounded inner child needed this emotion to exist and thrive, and I became a constant supplier. No matter what the situation, I had the ability to interpret hurt for myself. It had become my comfort zone. All the 'no one loves me, no one understands me, I am all alone' stuff. Funny, I was happiest when I was hurting! The wounded inner child was ruling from a throne, and I energised and fed her everyday!
So the process of listening to my body began the most awsome process of releasing all the hurt (and several other emotions) that I had stored in the body. I did a 21 day process, and was amazed at what my body was now ready to release and free itself from. I requested each part of the body, to release what it was holding, as I was ready to let it go. Some of the scenes that I saw as the 'stuff' left was quite amazing. Lifetimes of terror, war, starvation, fires, floods, earthquakes, and much more was released. I actually lost weight, and was feeling free.
The Vipassana experience further connected me to my body. I could enter every single part of the body, and witness its process. I can understand how much clearing was happening just in the witnessing. Since I had a practice of body listening, I could pay attention to each part, and feel the sensations, movements, and nuances. There was so much going on! Perspiration and hot flashes would drench me periodically, as the cleansing continued. I was able to see the muscles, bones, and different body organs. It was intense.
Since then, my connection to my body, and the healing processes have been further enhanced. with the power of imagination, I now visit the temple of rejuvination, and get healing for whatever is required. And my healed body is all the validation I need!
Am loving it!
